Sick Girl

I have all these dark fantasies about him. I long for a violent entanglement. Our new routine is that he fucks my cunt and arse harsh and hard. He spreads my holes open until the skin splits and I'm bleeding and crying or wishing that I could cry. My moans are guttural now. Vile yelps of agony and love and suffering dedication. I long for him to push and use me more. I long for him to fill my vessel body with cum and piss and spit. I long for him to use me to urinate on or into, to run his dirty, yellow tipped fingers against my gums. To push them down my throat until I vomit in his hands. I want him to make me disgusting. I want to feel disgusted by myself. I am painfully aroused by these ideas.