Alone and Learning

I choose a toy which sits twice between my thighs, penetrating me double. A probe of cold glass sliding into me, front and back, where I am split, broke open and hurting.

I feel the object push in and think of how much it would please him to know I was stimulating my bottom for his pleasure and my own.

I fuck myself hard and rub with my fingers. I think about him as I give myself a crashing draw of white pleasure. I whisper in my lungs "He is my sir. This is what he wants".

I leave myself inserted and in pain as I write this.